Reminder

REMINDER

Sometimes I just can’t hush my anxious mind.

My stomach hurts and my unshed tears are burning in my eyes.

Some days are just extra everything—extra stark, extra empty, extra lonely.

I can only go through the motions and try to keep a firm grip on myself.

Because I will just cry and cry, I’m so sure that I won’t be able to stop.

I’m no good at comforting myself, the fears are just too loud.

Where can I go if my rent goes up? Should I give up my car?

Will I be alone until the end? And will I really be good?

I’m so cold and I can’t feel my feet,

I can never get warm enough, even with all the heavy blankets.

Every now and then, I have to give myself a reminder-

Shhhhh, baby…. Everything is going to be ok.

TMD 4/20/24

30-day poems with @beausia